A long, long road.

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2010-10-15T23:03:00.001-07:00

sorrry for not updating, i shifted to tumblr.

About SMK BUD(4).

2010-10-13T18:13:00.000-07:00

Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Bandar Utama Damansara (4) (SMK BUD (4)) is a brilliant school that produces many bright, intelligent, warm-hearted and free-thinking young students.

SMK BUD(4) is one of the best secondary schools in Selangor. The students here are capable of reaching high academic levels and standards. This school not only focuses on academics, but on co-curricular activities as well. Both teachers and students are active in co-curricular activities.

Speaking of teachers, the teachers here are responsible and dutiful educators. Not just that, they are patient and caring as well. Some of the students here have also developed a strong and positive relationship with the teachers.

I've also met so many amazing people that gradually became big parts of my life. It has only been less than two years, but we're tight. My best friend Poh Yee, she's a real keeper. She's the most loyal, most understanding and most supportive friend I ever had.

2010-03-12T01:52:00.001-08:00

the awesomes. :)

Photoshoot.

2010-02-20T06:13:00.000-08:00

I’m not satisfied with my figure. And you obviously know what this means. I need to start working out again. I need to cut down on the sugar. And it ain’t gonna be easy.

Ambrose told me to go for liposunction. Really Ambrose? My day was okay. My aunt came over piano class. She taught me how to play chords. Before piano class, went to La Casa with my bro and my maid.

We had to rush back, so we coudln’t get an ice cream. I can say it was pretty worth it, cuz the food there is really nice. Well, I’ll stop here.

You did it all for nothing.

2010-02-05T03:53:00.001-08:00

I don’t wanna blog about my day today.

Did you mean every single word of it? I know I’ve been really unfair to you. And for that, I’m sorry. Some people said you’ve changed, but I don’t believe it’s an excuse for you to act this way, especially to me!

Our friendship is dead, if you’re wondering what happened to it, it just died out in the cold when you left it there. It’s not the same anymore. I don’t wanna get so caught up on this. I'm trying to erase this off my head.

You threw all those shits away for nothing. Sometimes, ignorance can be bliss. So, I’ll just ignore all the hellos and byes, because you no longer matter to me and I can no longer recognize you as a friend and a brother. I’m not calling you anymore, happy? You certainly are. No doubt.

I’m done.

I ain't tripping, I know it's love.

2010-02-01T22:26:00.001-08:00

I skipped school today, I bet Poh Yee misses me a lot. At home, I got a little hungry. So I ate about.. 12 ferrero rochers? Big deal. I'm trying to save money at my very best. I know I'm capable of doing it.

Remember the times when we were kids, we always talked about our dreams, how do we pursue it, I always wanted to become a princess, I couldn't imagine how silly I was back then. I'll flop around in my dress, and you'll pretend to be prince charming. We were quite the charmers back then.

Oh my... I'm starting to sound like Taylor Swift. Talked to Dana, I feel so ashamed, I had no idea what to say to her, I'm one of the last person on earth to ask my advice from. :/ Right, I'll stop here.

-sam.

I think of you and eveything's okay.

2010-01-31T03:10:00.001-08:00

Hey peeps! I’m so lame at blogging. *slaps her head* Perhaps this would help. I need vocabulary lessons. Gawh. So many things have been happening in my world lately.. I don’t know which one to point out.

I’m having this feeling within me, which I always fail to comprehend. There are like so many of voices in my head. I’ve been thinking, and thinking.. And I ended up confusing myself. Why.. How.. What? All my unanswered questions.

The Stand, this song has been repeating notoriously in my head, as if I remember the lyrics. Well, I only remember the chorus. What can I say? What could I do? But offer this heart oh God, completely to you..

Jo has left Malaysia! So did Dad, I’m starting to miss both of them. :/ I’m not coming to school on Monday to Tuesday. People, please don’t miss me. :) I’ll stop here.

Merentas desa 2010.

2010-01-29T01:43:00.002-08:00

It was one tiring day I can say. Great job blues, we totally nailed them. We’ll show them, all of them what we’re made of. Yeah, till then, we’ll show them.

It’s Biru for the win! We won’t lose, not this time. I don’t wanna get disappointed again like last year. Congratz Lydia, i love you! My stamina was running low when I reached the third checkpoint.

And the rest of the pictures are with Norman & Sean Tee. I’m so happy that everyone gave their best. Passed by Poh Yee’s mum while I was running, she was in the car. The muscle spray really worked, thanks steph! :)

Won’t be able to go for cell tonight, dad has to go for a meeting. Well, I’ll stop here.

And I'm thinking two is better than one.

2010-01-24T00:29:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone. Church was AWE-SOME. Today’s youth message was really good. Mark showed us a video called A thousand questions. It’s based on how children are suffering in the world today. It really moved my heart.

I just wished that I could do something for them, and what I mean by them, I mean whoever is lost or facing poverty etc. I just gotta get out of my comfort zone. No one noticed that I was crying while I was watching the video. I cried silently, but deep inside my heart cried out loud for them.

Many of us think life stinks, but try to put yourself in their shoes, they’ve gone through a whole lot more than you did. I’ve learned to be content, whatever it is, I must appreciate it because it’s a blessing from God.

Tear down the walls says it all. Tear down the walls, tear down the barrier that disables us from reaching out to the lost.

Had fun with Yumey, Joseph, Ming Sung and Jason. Jo’s leaving next week. Goodbye, for now. I’ll see you in three months. Yumey looked so adorable with Uncle Tony’s marketing boots. Haha. She’s really adventurous. Joseph and Ming Sung were talking about cup sizes. LMAO.

You're like a light bulb, you turn me on.

If you were a library book, I would so check you out. -Chooi Si.

Currently listening to Meet Me Halfway by The Black Eyed Peas. You guys should totally check out Haven’t met you yet by Michael Buble, it has a really funky tune. I’ll stop here.

I'll try to make every second count.

2010-01-23T01:10:00.000-08:00

Hey y’all! It was another “interesting” day at school. I’m trying to re-adjust myself back to school mode. Sadly, my kh teacher ain’t as nice as she seems.

Currently listening to Stay by Sugarland. I still prefer Ronan Keating’s version though. Homeworks are piling up. Oh boy, this ain’t good. I still feel like a form one. Form two is challenging, form two subjects require lots of memorizing, it’s hurting my head!

Mum took me and twerp to Ikano. Got a new book and some new correction tapes! I love correction tapes! It’s white and so much fun to play with! :) Guess what the book is about? It’s all about dumb blondes and dramas.

My year won’t be sitting for PMR, it was really unexpected. Happy birthday Azalea & Syann Ee! I was expecting half of the school to be absent. Anyhoo, we got dismissed at 12.30. I’ll stop here.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.

2010-01-22T03:46:00.001-08:00

My life’s on shaky ground. And I wonder who is trying to undermine my life. Well, it seems pretty obvious to all of us.

Drop the act, Ambrose, it’s getting really old. Currently listening to Two is better than one by Boys Like Girls feat. Taylor Swift. Life on the edge is a really good book, it’s fresh. I have no idea of what’s in stake for me, well, I’ll try not to succumb to anything that is displeasing in God’s eyes.

It seems like it was only yesterday when we first knew each other, and now you’re gone. Has this ever happened to you? You about thought that person night and day and fantasized about how wonderful he or she was.

I always want the things that I can’t possibly have or the things I always fail to attain. When that particular someone says goodbye, does that mean that they’re gone for good?

School was good I guess? I guess I’ll be heading to bed early since there’s school tomorrow. It’s only a matter of time when you grow up and forget all about me. Oh well, it is all beyond my control, my hands are tied down. I’m done. For now.

Count to three.

2010-01-21T03:56:00.001-08:00

You're probably wondering why I got to go on Facebook this morning. Good question, my gastric came back again. So I got to come home early from school.

This is the time when I take deep breath. The pain was quite severe, I was unable to bear the pain. Well, that explains it, I was holding on to a door.

If it wasn’t for Xian Ting and Wai Mun, I would most likely be screaming my head off and running around the school like some mad freak. Well, I can still remember when I ran up to Xian Ting during perhimpunan. I thought I was gonna faint.

I plan to miss Boys over flowers today. And I wonder why… Wai Mun took good care of me. I really wanna thank her a lot. Timothy has really a good humor, I think he over-exaggerated a little back there.

He was like, “Poh Yee, Samantha’s in the pejabat right now. She’s gonna die soon.” *sweat drop* Poh Yee called mum, “Hey aunty, Poh Yee here, I had to call you instead because Samantha can’t talk right now, she’s having gastric & she’s in the pejabat.” *sweat drop* Poh Yee is so funny.

Mum came to pick me up around 8.30. Currently listening to Need You Now by Lady Antebellum. I miss him a lot. He has been on my mind all day. :/ I’ll stop here.

I'm a little drunk & I need you now.

2010-01-20T18:10:00.000-08:00

Looking back at the moments we spent together, I really feel like going back, I really do. Things are a bit different in my world right now after you left. You've been on my mind all day.

They're part of the list, things that I miss, things like your funny little laugh & the way you smile. I miss you. :( I don't know how to express myself. You don't know how much I wish you were here. My world's just different without you.

I can no longer comprehend my feelings for you. I just wanna listen to what my heart is trying to tell me. I don't wanna hurt myself. What should I do? Work with me, brain, work with me. I guess you'll never know the song my heart is singing, I burn deeply for you.

How do I go on? I see you in my dreams, you're always in my head. I'm so glad I met you. I'm done here.

-sam.

Put the party on stop.

2010-01-16T01:11:00.001-08:00

Vanessa's party was AWE-SOME. The pictures will be up soon, once Nessa's dad uploads them. The peeps in TGI really know how to work it. We will, we will rock you! *drum beat*

Met this gorgeous babe named Amirah. She's really lovely. She's like my new gal pal. She was sitting right next to me, we were talking on & on. Saw lots & lots of cute outfits when I was with Caridee. I regretted not buying one. :/

My day was okay. My life's pretty empty without you here with me. :/ I'll stop here.

We were always meant to say goodbye.

2010-01-15T02:53:00.001-08:00

I hate it when my mood swings. Uh. If you were one of my close friends, you would know the reason why I'm down. All of my chances are slipping away, my chances of seeing him again. I'm gazing upon the stars. I wonder what they're trying to tell me.

I'm trying to calm myself. I'm taking a deep breath. I'm counting to 3. *sighs* You can see the tears rolling down my cheeks. My heart is pounding so fast. I just can't get over you. Only the songs you listen to can only remind me of you now.

School was good I guess? Ambrose really did it this time. I was in a really bad mood today, he just had to make it worse. Well, he asked for it. I told him off. Thanks py. Seems like no one understands my condition right now. :/

Cell was fun. Luke is really funny. The night went well. I was hoping that I wouldn't shed a tear. Well, guess what? I got to control my feelings. I don't know how to let it out now. I've gone sober. Oh well, I'll stop here.

-sam.

Painted faces fill the places I can't reach.

2010-01-10T00:30:00.001-08:00

Hey everybody! CHURCH WAS AWE-SOME. :D Youth was good. It was my first time going for youth. I finally got out of my lazy habit. I brought my nerds along. I took a hand full of nerds and ate them all in one shot. It's really addictive. :P

Today's youth speaker was good. He told us how to be in tune with God. He also showed us a video, I was moved, my heart was really convicted. After youth, hanged with Chooi Si & the guys. Chooi Si, Jo Lin & Dylan had to go back home later. And they left me with Jason.

So both us decided to hang with Joshua. Met this guy named Ming Sung. I thought he was 23, but he's only 18. Well, I didn't mean to offend him, he looks so mature. Joshua was laughing his head off, you could probably tell how funny it was.

All of us were talking about Naruto. Joseph joined in later. Somehow we jumped to relationships. I told Joseph everything I wanted in a guy, well, don't blame me, there weren't any girls to talk to. Chooi Si ditched me. :(

After the second service, I hanged with Charis, Callie, Joseph & Joshua. I'm not a bimbo, neither am I a blonde. Yay! There's cell this week. :D Alright, I'll stop here. :)

-sam.

The party don't stop.

2010-01-09T23:40:00.001-08:00

The party was awesome. I had a really great time with the girls. I would like to thank all of you for coming. :) Yeah, the girls had fun torturing me as well. First, I was locked out of the house. Second, I was forced to get thrown into the pool. And last, Annabelle tried to flip me.

The pictures are with Ashley, Chooi Si & Li Sheen. Chooi Si & Serinnah were the first ones to arrive. All of us went swimming after dinner, well some of us. :/ Dad's chicken was superb! It's sho good! :P It tasted exactly like hawaiian chicken pizza. :)

We took loads & loads of pictures, that's what makes us girls girls. For the ones who couldn't make it, you can come next year. :D Um, what else to write? Some from mother's side came. The party ended around 10. & thanks for the gifts. && thanks belle. ;)

I had to use my mouth to take out the candles, it was all Chooi Si's idea. I ended up ruining the cake, not the whole cake, but just one part of it. :/ & Poh Yee was the last one to go home.

I'll stop here. Toodles! :D

-sam.

I was the stranger that fell in love with you.

2010-01-08T04:09:00.000-08:00

Hey you! I had an awesome day at school today, it was alright, till some teacher ruined it. Psht. Well you were the one who brought it up in the first place. You know what I'm talking about.

I had a great time with the girls. We did prank on the guys. We ran back to our seats to make it look real, and the guys really fell for it. HAH! Wai Loon sprayed water at us, the water went into my eye. Thanks a lot Wai Loon! I guess I deserved that. :/

Was on the phone with Ben just now, he'll actually take the trouble to call me. Aww, what are friends for? :D I miss him so much, I sound so miserable. My gastric came back again & dad wants me to stay at home. There's nothing I can do about it. :/

I'm missing out a lot on a fun night. It's a Friday for crying out loud & I can't go out. Psht. Happy birthday Euodia Ong Song-Hui & Jacqueline Tan Wei Lin! It's you're 17th! You ain't getting any younger. Whoops. :X

Currently listening to Leave (Get Out) by Jojo. I'm gonna miss the fun tonight, I didn't see this coming. Uh. Sometimes I get really irritated when poeple try to control my life, it's like I don't have a mind of my own. Alright, I'll stop here. I wanna watch Boys over flowers now. Bye!

-sam.

Let's play tic tac toe on our skin.

2010-01-07T22:55:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! I skipped school today. Don't ask. You don't wanna know. Walked to La Casa to buy my lunch. Had wild mushroom soup & some garlic bread, it was a really satisfying meal. ;)

I miss him a lot. :/ This time, I didn't miss Boys over flowers. Today's episode was really sad, I was practically crying, I really pity Jan Di. Will be going to school tomorrow, I don't feel like it though. I've absolutely no mood at all!

Today's post will be a short one. Downloaded some fresh new music. I miss Serinnah & Chooi Si, I really hope they can make it on Saturday. I'll stop here.

-sam.

I'm the new star of the show. :)

2010-01-06T00:30:00.000-08:00

Make way for the birthday girl! Haha. I've never been this happy before. Spending time with my friends at school today was the best birthday present ever. I feel really happy around them. :)

I'm finally 14, I gotta get used to this, cuz' I miss being 13! :/ I would like to thank my friends for the gifts & the wishes. I really appreciate them a lot. I wanna thank every single one of you, you made this the birthday I would never ever forget, you made my dream come true. How could I ever thank you?

I would also like to thank Caridee, she was my buddy of the day. She gave me a doodoll, a shirt & she accompanied me to the curve. Aww, ain't that sweet? I regret buying half a dozen of cupcakes now. It's super sweet, well, in that case, I'll bring them to school tomorrow. :)

I had fun being 13, well, time to make new memories. Loads of people wished me today, I think I lost count. You wouldn't mind me saying this again? Thanks everyone, I appreciate every single one of you, that includes you, Joel Tong ! :) Chooi Si was really excited to wish me, so she wished me a minute before 12. I'll stop here. Thanks again. ;)

-sam.

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain where we met.

2010-01-03T02:08:00.001-08:00

Church was awesome. :D None of us were really paying attention to the sermon. Well, I was trying to. :/ Instead, Chooi Si & the guys writing stuff on my autograph book. Me & Joseph were about the prank call, get facebook Joseph!

The outing was fun. Stopped by Wendy's for lunch. The chicken there is so good! Teacher Kevin & Tze Yang wanted to take a picture of me eating chicken. LOL. Oh boy! Back to school tomorrow. :/ Wanna know what Joel told me in church? You wanna be a light of God? First, you need to become lighter. Lol!

Princess and the frog was awesome. Prince Naveen is really cute, but he's just extremely flirty. At first, all of us wanted to watch Sherlock Holmes, but all tickets were booked. And the only worth-it movie was Princess and the frog. I'm gonna miss the Subangs. :'(

I don't wanna go back to school! I rather help out in VBS every week than going back to school. :/ Met up with mum around 4. Stopped by My face shop to buy some facial masks. I had an awesome time with Chooi Si in church, being with her is like being in another world. I'm gonna miss my bimbo. :( I'll stop here.

-sam.

Goodbye 2009 and hello 2010.

2010-01-01T00:36:00.001-08:00

2009 is long gone. Time to make new memories. New challenges await us! 2010 has got so much lined up for us. Let's welcome 2010!

It was a rough start for me last year, since it was my first year in secondary school and all.. :/ I met new faces & learned new stuff, i gotta break it to you that they'd come in handy once in a while. During school break, I helped out in VBS, served God in the Christmas play & I got closer with all the Subangs.

I had a great time at Charis's party. Hweii Chiee came over too. Me, Oliver, Charis & Hweii Chiee were having a makeover. & I so do not look good in brown. Well, I always thought that I looked good in brown cuz' I have tanned skin. HAH. Lesson learned.

We were playing truth or dare, all of us had to spin the mascara, and guess who got hit? Me, as always. :/ Aight, I'm done. For now. Have a happy new year everyone! ;)

-sam.

The energy never dies.

2009-12-31T18:44:00.001-08:00

The flame is always there, as long as there's a passion, the flame will never die out.

The E.N.D. was awesome! I had so much fun with the Subangs. Chooi Si & Joseph did a great job. *thumbs up* :D Had a great time at the photo booth with the girls. All the decorations were lovely, the food was good. Was called by the guys to share a testimony, thanks a lot guys! xD I was practically mumbling, I wasn't ready, I had no idea what to say.

Well, I'm really grateful that I managed to achieve my goal. My goal tonight was to share a testimony about all the things I had to go through this year. I don't care if I didn't win an award, I'll still go back home with a smile on my face. I thank God for giving me such a wonderful year, although it was a little rough on the edges, but it was a really fun ride. And seeing all these things flashing before my eyes. It makes me go WOW! Time really flies.

I'm gonna miss everyone in Subang. They have been a big encouragement to me. It's just really sad that they're moving back soon. Watch night was great, I managed to share another testimony. And I'm also really grateful that I met Thomas, Joel, Joseph, Joshua, Chooi Si, Yumey, Ming King & Li Na along the way. It was really nice getting to know all of you.

Bingo was fun, won a MPH voucher. :) Isaak shared a blonde joke, then Nick & the guys were pointing at me & shouting Blonde over here. Okaaay, that was really unexpected. But the joke was seriously really funny. Joel's sister said I look like Kim Kardashian! I'll take that as a compliment. :) That night went really well. The countdown was awesome. The pictures will be up soon. Gotta go now. Have a happy new year!

-sam.

No, I can't breathe. No, I can't sleep.

2009-12-30T02:38:00.000-08:00

Good day everyone! I need some tips on what to wear tomorrow. Right now, I'm too concerned about my figure. Maybe something not too extravagant, but just right for the occasion?

My day was good I guess? I'm craving for Ferrero Rocher right now. Toblerone will do just fine, I think. :/ Boys over flowers is starting in T-MINUS 1 HOUR. Currently listening to Jai Ho by PCD. This song really brings back sweet memories. :D

I think I lost my blogging mojo. :/ Oh yeah, guess who is turning 16 today? (Hint: M.S.) Yes, that person would be Marwan Shagul. Happy Birthday Marwan, the machindian! :) Daddy's getting older. :o You may get your belated present next year, or not. Heh. :)

E.N.D.'s tomorrow, I'm phscyed. :) Mel Soo, you don't know what you're missing. I need to see you before you guys move back! :( Texted Euo & Serinnah, can't wait to see them tomorrow! All the best Chooi Si! If you see a girl holding a large banner with your name on it, that girl would be me. Haha. :) I'll stop here. Au revoir!

-sam.

Seems like just yesterday, you were part of me.

2009-12-29T03:07:00.001-08:00

Upcoming events:

Thursday: E.N.D, farewell party for the Subangs

Friday: Charis's party

Sunday: Outing with Teacher Kevin & the class

Hello there! I'm trying to make my posts more interesting, it's gonna need a lot of work,well I don't mind trying. My day was good. I had to miss Boys over flowers today since dadeo over here wanted to watch football. I stole his chocolate anyway, so we're even now.

I was almost dying of hunger, then I saw dad's Ferrero Rocher in the fridge, so I just ate them all. Who can't resist Ferrero Rocher? It's so tasty. Hm. December has been one busy month for me I can say. I've been helping out in VBS, going for all the dance practices & dancing in the Christmas play.

It's gonna be the start of a new year soon. Oh, I'm really gonna miss you, 2009. You left me so much memories, it's a pity that I have to let them go & move on. MOVE ON, that's what everyone says. I don't mean to be pessimistic, but life can be really unfair.

Texted Chooi Si & Serinnah. We've been complaining about our figures for the past week, and I'm still the fatest amongst them. Tsk tsk tsk, girls are never satisfied about their figures. Lee Min-Ho is such a babe. My maid was practically speechless when I showed her his picture. I'll stop here. Bye readers.

-sam.

I'm grateful for all of the times, you opened my eyes.

2009-12-28T03:05:00.001-08:00

Hey. I don't think I'm in the mood of blogging today. Well, might as well get this blog updated. :/ Yes, the pictures are finally up, thanks Sue Mae. :)

My day was um.. okay. I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy it. Actually, I didn't enjoy it at all. I need to get some things off my head, it's affecting me. I'm trying to get over it.

You made my world a better place. Without you, it's just not the place to be. I feel so empty without you. I've never ever had such great friends before, friends that would actually take the trouble to be there for me and respond in a more godly way, besides God. Of course, no one can ever beat God. :)

Thanks for the memories, I'll always cherish them. *pinky swear*

-sam.

Everything's falling apart.

2009-12-27T01:13:00.001-08:00

Alright, I'm having an emotional breakdown right now.
I don't know what to do! I'm falling apart, does anyone feel the same way as I do right now?

I can't bear to see Serinnah leave. Why now!? Can't time just slow down!?
Serinnah, Sue Mae, Chooi Si, Dylan, Joel, Yumey, Thomas, Brandon, Joseph, Joshua, Rachael, Jo Lin, Ming King & Li Na, I love every single one of them. All of you are so dear to me.

I'm not used to not seeing them. Things are gonna change, I can't do anything to prevent it from happening. I'm trying to calm down right now. I have always valued our friendship Rinnah. I don't wanna say goodbye, not now, not ever! I'm gonna miss you.

I don't know whether I can cope with this. Dylan, don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. My heart is aching so much. You can't stop the pain. It really cuts deep into my heart. I can't let you guys go.

-sam.

Gimme, gimme, gimme a man of the midnight.

2009-12-26T06:38:00.001-08:00

Hello everybody! The party rocked. The food was awesome, in fact, everything was AWESOME! Charis, Jacqueline & Olivia came, I had so much fun with them. :P Ju-Hann couldn't make it, haha, well, he's a very "busy" guy.

We camwhored, we gossiped, we laughed, we screamed, so many things happened in just one night. I was so relieved that the neighbors did not complain about the noise. Well, we weren't that loud, but still, you can't be too sure you know. Ethan was pretty dissapointed about the fact that we didn't tell him that we went out to swim. Oh well, there's always a next time, kiddo. :)

We played truth or dare in the pool, ohh, that moment was getting even more & more interesting. We told each other sick stories. Jac was considered the cleanest amongst us. Well, nothing wrong with talking dirty in the pool.

The gift exchange didn't go very well as planned, because some of the numbers were missing. I can't wait for church tomorrow, cuz I get to see Serinnah! She's the greatest friend anyone could ever wish for! I'm just really sad that she has to move back to Subang next year. :'(

Well, E.N.D's next week. I'm guessing that everyone's gonna take loads & loads of pictures with one another since it's a farewell party for the Subangs. I'll stop here. Bye. For now.

-sam.

Merry Christmas everyone! :)

2009-12-25T00:09:00.001-08:00

Merry, merry Christmas people! This is the best Christmas I ever had, I would cherish it forever. The play was a success. & who do we thank? Yes, we thank God. If it wasn't for him, the play would just be a rip-off. And I thank God for also guiding King Wai.

I had so much fun performing onstage, serving God is just such an amazing experience. Pictures?? Yes yes, pictures. They're with Sue Mae, Joel, Chooi Si, Yumey, Sophia & Brandon. I gave it my all, cuz whatever we do, in the end of the day, the glory goes to God.

I'm so thankful that God sent His only Son to die for my sins. Dancers, we did a great job! We must give thanks to God. && Julian, I'm not a poser alright, it's not my fault that the camera is so attached to me. I had a great time with the Subangs as well. I'm really gonna miss them a lot. :'(

Got up at 5 in the morning, surprisingly I could actually get up, I had difficulty falling asleep last night. Haha, can't wait for tomorrow's portluck! :D We took lots & lots of pictures today. You can say that we're just so full of energy. Had to perform for two rounds. I was sweating like mad backstage.

All the guys had to wear make-up, they looked so pretty! I.AM.NOT.JOKING. Joseph was trying to run away, but all of us pulled him back. Serinnah looks so pretty in glitter! If only I brought my camera, that is, if it wasn't broken, I could have taken millions of shots of her. I'll stop here.

Once again, Merry Christmas. God bless you. :D

-sam.

Everyone, it's Christmas Eve. :)

2009-12-24T00:52:00.000-08:00

I had a pretty suckish day today. :/ Got scolded by my maid, I seriously can't stand her. Uh, she thinks she's the boss of me. You know what? I've had it with you. You're the one with the "issues". Yes, issues.

I'm really pissed off right now. I get this kinda crap almost everyday. Sometimes she may intend to hurt me emotionally, without knowing it. I wasn't really in the mood today. I know I know, it's Christmas Eve. Well, she started it. She just takes everything so seriously.

I just hope that she won't ruin my day tomorrow. :/ All her stupid lectures! I'm just darn fed up. Yeah, it's Christmas tomorrow. I'll be needing some beauty sleep for tomorrow's play. I don't wanna go to church with eye bags, I'll look scary. :/

The year is almost coming to an end. Any goodbyes? Bring it on, 2010. I'll try to dodge whatever you throw at me. :) I can't wait for tomorrow! I bet there's gonna be loads & loads of pictures! Yay! :D & loads of camwhoring sessions for the girls. Woots! Well, look at the time. Bye!

-sam.

And it seems like so much is going wrong on this road we're on.

2009-12-23T18:01:00.001-08:00

Oh. Hello! Hm. It was the last day of practice today. I thought I wouldn't be able to make it. Well, it's a really long story. I was running out of faith at that moment till I heard the taxi driver sharing testimonies about his friends, I couldn't help butting in.

I didn't expect this to happen, but God has his own purposes & I can't go against that. It was another hot day, and dad drove me to Sepang to pick up some missionaries from the airport. We waited for quite a while, my legs were aching.

Dad couldn't start the car, I was getting really worried by each minute. So we had to tumpang a taxi. The taxi driver overheard my dad talking about his car, so the taxi driver drove us to the nearest mechanic store. So dad bought a new battery for the car & the mechanic dropped him off the airport.

I was so blessed by the missionaries. They shared the good news with the taxi driver. I saw a smile plastered on his face, and something struck me, he was ready to take that leap. He was really happy to hear about the good news. Yes, all of us need God's salvation. So far, we didn't come across any jams or whatsoever. Praise the Lord! :D The missionaries gave him some leaflets.

Dad came back around 6. Arrived at church around 7. I was really relieved, nothing is impossible for God, NOTHING! I can always count on Him. :D All of us had KFC for dinner, but that wasn't it, it was the fellowship I had with my friends. We had a few run-throughs. Then, it came to a time when I cried backstage, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I couldn't bear to see all my friends leave. I was afraid of being alone.

I was so glad that Serinnah was there, I had someone to lean on. I had to let it out. Finished practice around 11. I was feeling a little knocked out at then, so dad drove me back home. I'll just stop here. Bye.

-sam.

If I were to write you a letter, I would speak what's in my soul.

2009-12-22T06:19:00.000-08:00

Good day readers, good day! :D Currently listening to Stay by Sugarland. Practice was okay. Left the house around 1. Texted dee at practice, thanks again dee! I'll try to get you something for your birthday. :)

I'm done tidying up my clothes, I'm so tired. :/ Dropped by 7-Eleven after practice to get some drinks & snacks. Went to some studio at AmCorp Mall to practice the steps. The girls & Joel had to tumpang Chooi Si's car. Me, Chooi Si & Rinnah were singing So What in the car. I was screaming & messing up my hair. LOL. Joel said he was gonna go deaf. LOL. Dylan stepped on my toe! Tumpang Tommy's car back to church.

Tommy was really thoughtful to keep me company while waiting for my dad to pick me up. :) Crap! I missed Boys Over Flowers, again! Damn it! It's gonna be the last day of practice tomorrow, I'm gonna miss everyone. :(

I wanna have dinner with them again. :/ School will be reopening really soon, I can't sleep late anymore, this is such a drag. It's a brand new start next year, I won't be able to see the Subangs in church anymore. :(

Haha, Joseph can really shake his booty! Way to go Jo! I had so much fun with Sue Mae. :) Talking to Rinnah right now, I'm gonna miss her a lot! I'll stop here. :)

-sam.

We were dreamers, not so long ago.

2009-12-21T18:15:00.000-08:00

Kim & I @ the reunion. :)

Hello readers! I had great day with the Subangs. Practice was awesome! Went to church around 3, arrived there at 3.40. And still, there was no sign of Chooi Si.

I brought five packets of sweets, which included Tic Tacs, Malteesers & gummy bears. & all of us finished them in just two hours. I was really surprised that I could still remember the steps.Went to Noodle Station for dinner. & guess who was the driver? Yes, Sue Mae. :)

Hot 'N' Cold suddenly went on the radio, so me, Rinnah & Chooi Si decided to act like mad babes in the car. It was really funny. Haha, even Joseph & Brandon were laughing at us. The noodles in Noodle Station ain't that good, but the drinks there are awesome!

I had 3 I miss You lemonades. omg, it's seriously good. :D By the time I had my third drink, I was already stuffed. Well, I coudln't finish the noodles anyway. Julian drove us back. :o I was screaming inside, & thank goodness I'm still in one piece.

We had to wait till 9 to use the youth hall, so we went back to the music room. By the time we had to go to the youth hall, everyone forgot the steps except for Thomas & Chooi Si of course. Everyone kept banging into one another, everyone was rushing. Oh well, but the rehearsal went well. I'll just stop here. See ya!

-sam.

I won't let this moment to ever end, where everything'd nothing without you.

2009-12-20T04:38:00.001-08:00

Church was awesome. I was acting as some camel named Erin, it was really last minute, but the play went well. :) & my fellow camels were Penda & Nina which were acted out by Felicia & Joo Yee.

Gave granny a ride back home from church. Mum's going to Singapore today! Christmas is only five days away. Currently listening to Mighty to save by Hillsong United. Yes, it's true. Everyone needs forgivesness & compassion. I'm stil feeling kinda tired from last night. I had trouble sleeping last night. :/

I'm on Twitter right now. And here, I'm eating jelly from some party. Heehee. :) Called Chooi Si, man it felt so good talking to her. I missed her so much! I know, 4 days isn't really long, but for me it is!

Oh well, I'm done. For now. :D

♥ ;

I stumble and fall, but I mean these words.

2009-12-19T22:19:00.000-08:00

Good day everyone! I'm excessively addicted to Twitter right now! Who knew it could be so addictive? I mean, seriously? One & the same is currently stuck in my head right now, I keep on singing it in the car. I'm so lame.

The guys are coming back tomorrow. YAAAAAAAYY! You know what this means? It's time for some RANDOM DANCING! Hahaha, LOL. School reopens in two weeks!? O________O OH BOY!! Back to getting up early in the morning again which is really annoying. :/ I'm in the mood for some gummy bears right now. Hm.

Omg, I'm head over heels for Kim Bum right now. He has a killer smile! Drop dead gorgeous, aw yeah. :) Don't worry, I'm still into Lee Min-Ho, he's my number one! No, make it number two cuz Poh Yee's my number one! Yeehee. :D My day was good. I'm bored. :/ Watched my bro play some Naruto game, I had to find something worth my time later.

I've got practice on Monday, I'm so excited! I finally get to see Rinnah, Sue Mae & Chooi Si!! Guess what?? Shiashia princess is the new pink. :) LOL. I'll stop here. Au revoir!

♥ ;

I lose all my senses when I look into your eyes, your eyes are just so captivating.

2009-12-18T05:18:00.001-08:00

Hello everybody! I'm having this problem. I need to overcome a certain temptation, and that would be Boys over flowers. That show is just so tempting, I had to miss today's one in fact cuz' dad over here wanted to watch tv so I had miss Boys over flowers.

I don't know how to express my disappointment right now. I feel like shouting at someone, I waited for 11 hours just to watch it. Sadly, I could only watch half of it today. :/ You can see why I am making such a deal out of it, well, that explains everything, IT'S SO TEMPTING!!

Currently listening to Note to God by Charice. She has very good vocals, not bad for a teenager. :D Watched Merlin, decided to skip iCarly & True Jackson. Arthur is so freaking hot! Drop dead gorgeous! :P He has stunning eyes! I'm so jealous! Ngeh. xD

I wonder how everyone's doing in youth camp right now. I bet they're having a great time. Oh gee... Christmas is only a week away. Yay! Christmas is my favourite time of the year, & it's not because of the presents I get, in fact, I don't expect any. :)

A few more weeks till school reopens, this is such a drag. :/ Oh great! I'm gonna miss sleeping for long hours. I'm a person who loves to sleep. And when I don't get enough sleep, I'll be grumpy. I'm done. Later readers!

♥ ;

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.

2009-12-17T06:09:00.001-08:00

Lee Min-Ho, McDreamy. :) ♥Hyun Joong. ♥

Hello gorgeous! :) I'm feeling good. I'm giving up my dream of losing it in Paris now. I want Lee Min-Ho! :D I hope he's not taken. Heehee. Boys over flowers rocks! I'm currently listening to Because I'm Stupid by SS501.

I love korean guys. I was practically sreaming on the phone when I was talking to Poh Yee. Oh gosh, why must korean guys look so seductive? I have issues resisting hot guys especially koreans, seriously, I would go mad! Um, maybe wild to be exact? Heh. :/

I told you, I can't control myself when it comes to hot guys. Min-Ho's eyes are just so alluring, so sexy, okay, I'm repeating everything again. LOL. Watched Picking up and dropping off while waiting for my piano teacher. & I would like to wish someone right here Happy Birthday, & that someone would be Lydia Ng Huey Mei. This is your day, you heard me, it's your day. :)

It's so amazing when fate can bring two people together. Yes, fate works in many ways. :) Like how they brought Hyun Bin & Song Hye Kyo together. Okay, why am I talking about them again? Hahah. Back to talking about how stunning ( CHARMING'S THE WORD ) korean guys are.

Poh Yee's probably fed up with me being so obsessed over koreans. She told me to go for Italians, but I said no. :D Lee Min-Ho is to die for! He's just naturally charming, oh yeah, I can see that. :) Oh well, I'll stop here. See you soon!

♥ ;

Nothing brings me down when you're around.

2009-12-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps. Serinnah & them all will be in Youth Camp tomorrow. :/ Currently listening to Zero Gravity by David Archuleta. I totally forgot that I have such great friends. Yeah, I had great friends 'till they ditched me for Youth Camp. You guys rock! xD

I'm really gonna miss you guys when you guys go back to Subang next year. :'( All of you are like family to me, losing one of you is like losing an organ. Okay, that did not sound right. Oh wait, I'm a random person. :D Have fun guys, I'm gonna miss you. My day was okay, had to tidy up my room since my family will be expecting guests next week.

Talking to Dylan right now, I must appreciate the time I have left with him. Oh gee... I want a chocolate bar, probably chocolate would make me feel better. :/ I can't follow them back to Subang due to the inconvenience, Subang is pretty far from where I live.

Thank goodness I have Rachael to teman me on Sunday, she is a lifesaver. :) I'm gonna miss Serinnah & Sue Mae, damn it! :'( I'll see them next Monday in practice anyway. But i hate waiting! Uh. I'm not in the mood right now. I wanna go for youth camp, but it's gonna be really last minute though. I'm off to bed now, good night readers!

If it is a dream, please don't wake me up this high.

2009-12-15T20:20:00.001-08:00

Practice was awesome! Dylan said I look like Mario. Seriously, what's up with that? I look nothing like Mario okay? & Joseph had to bring up the mushrooms. Things just can't get any better... Oh well, it's really good to have them around, they really crack me up at times. :)

I have red marks on my knees right now. :/ Everyone's excited about Youth Camp. I'm the exception cuz' I'm not going, this is such a drag! My knees just hurts a little right now. Joshua is really very caring, he's awfully nice too! :D

Thomas looks really cute in a headband. Heehee, it's a compliment. It was really fun knowing Joseph & Joshua, I miss retro night! E.N.D. is coming soon! Wheeeeeeeee~ Chooi Si did a real great job as a choreographer, I could see that she was very tired, but I really respect her, she's had to work her ass off.

My day was okay I guess? Dad came around 10.45 from the concert. He got to hear Jaclyn Victor sing!? Oh gosh. Joanna Yeoh, Patrick Leong & Jovita Suwito were there too. Joanna Yeoh is awesome! She can really express her feelings through music. When she plays the violin, she has this feeling you know, a talented woman I can say. :D

Well, I'll stop here. Bye. For now.

Listen to snowflakes, whisper your name.

2009-12-14T02:10:00.001-08:00

Chooi Si canceled practice today, boohoo! =( Now what am I gonna do? Stone in front of the computer? I don't think so. :/ Where's bumblebee when you need him? I don't know, out with his friends I guess.

Honestly Bella, Jacob is waaaaaay hotter than Edward, even the merest idiot would know that. If Jacob was standing right in front of me right now, I would strip off his clothes & lick his hot body. And the next day, I would most probably appear on the headlines, I wouldn't be surprised, MAD GIRL RAPES TAYLOR LAUTNER. :0 Ah, that way Taylor will remember me forever. :)

Boredom hit me again, this shucks! *spits on the ground* Lydia's birthday is coming soon. My twin is turning 13 soon. Ooh, can't wait, can't wait! :D Have fun in youth camp everyone. Sasuke Uciha rocks! Gosh, he is gorgeous. He is exceedingly hot! BOOM!

& Zachary, I so do not bully you okay? I'm a very nice person & I won't do such mean things. :D Eesh, I'm so bored. :/ I blame Caridee right now cuz' she left me for Singapore & Germany. Psht. I'll stop here. Bye readers!

Waiting for the night to come, thinking of you just runs too deep.

2009-12-13T05:25:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone! Just got off the phone with Ambrose a few minutes ago. After he ended the call, boredom struck me again. I'm like dying to watch New Moon. I feel really left out cuz' most of my friends watched it already & that makes me the "odd" one. Church was awesome! Teacher Kevin came in the class today, the class was as noisy as ever. He loves talking about me, wonder why. ==

Dylan won't be coming for practice tomorrow/ Boo you, Dylan, boo you! xP It won't affect me anyway, cause I'm not his partner. Ambrose was showing off his so-called American accent on the phone. Face it, you can't talk the talk, Ambrose. I'll just leave that to you! Mhmm.

Wait, I just realized that my birthday is coming soon, like really soon. It's less than a month now. I just hope that I can throw something simple & I pray that my mum won't overdo it this time. Oh gee.. I'm starting to miss Yumey now. She ditched me, well not exactly, she had to go for some family trip, so I can't really blame her, right?

I miss Poh Poh, i miss my hyper little bitch. Did i just say that out loud? Phew, she would kill me if she heard about this. Well, if she does kill me, she'll lose a very great friend & live a very miserable life && she won't have a shoulder to cry on. :/ I'm arguing with Dylan now. It started with practice, then youth camp & it's still going on.

Most of my friends are going youth camp on Thursday, leaving me behind. I know I have such "great" friends. I'm definitely going next year, I don't wanna rot at home. :/ I'm done, for now. Bye readers!

-samantha.

I'll be 1, you'll 2 & she'll be 3.

2009-12-11T05:18:00.000-08:00

I'll just blog about a few things that happened today. Well, not much happened today though, I can assure that. :/ I miss Andrew Phong! :( I wanna see him again!! Sadly, I won't be going youth camp. Gee, what a bummer. :( I can't make things happen the way I want it to, that's just a thought.

Yesterday's practice was awesome. I prefer rehearsing at night, don't know why, but that's just a personal preference. :) Thank goodness I managed to handle Isaak yesterday, ugh, he won't stop complaining of me being horny & all. Well, get used to it Isaak. :) Yumey ditched me. :( I was practically almost out of breath in practice. It was pretty unbelievable that I was sweating in an air-conditioned room.

We had to go to the main hall later to practice. Ming King was one of the actors. :0 He called us "uncool". What's up with that, Ming?! Your the uncool one. I was surprised when I heard you sing. Oh well, I'll just skip that part. Jai Ho rocks!! Julain is a really good singer, he's a natural. Yeah man. :D I'll just stop here, bye readers. :)

-samantha.

I felt interested in a boy who seemed more exaggeraedly reserved than myself.

2009-12-10T00:06:00.001-08:00

Atencion! It's Jaspreet & Kamarul's birthday today! & today's the day when they, Jaspreet & Kamarul turn 13, isn't this great? I'll just like to wish you guys bon anniversaire!! :D I'm currently listening to El Gitano De Amor by Latin Soul Syndicate. It has a wonderful rhytymn & melody. The tempo is just right. So why not get your feet on the dance floor & move it? :)

Going for practice around 7. Had spaghetti for lunch & dinner, I've had my share, I don't think I can have another plate of spaghetti. Man, I'm stuffed. My stomach is satisfied. :D I'm so addicted to Jai Ho right now, I hope it won't become something I can't live without. If it does, I gotta push Sue Mae away. Nah, I'm just messing with you. :) Nothing can come between us, Sue Mae, not even Ethan.

I'm trying to picture Ethan erecting when he sees you. Mind my vocabulary, I pretty much suck in English according to Rudy. :/ I'm hopelessly devoted to Taylor Lautner, he's a babe! Correction, a hot babe, oh yeah. :P Damn, I wanna lick his body! Ben, drop the act. Your freaking me out! :X Ben now refers himself as Ben Lautner. LMAO.

It was another ordinary day for a girl like me. Man, I'm so tired of living a double-life. I don't know how to be myself in front of my family & friends. I just hope that I'm not the only one dealing with this problem. :/ I don't wanna be known as the attention seeker anymore, well that's just not who I really am. I just wanna be treated like how you treat your friends. Why must there be hatred in this world? The world is just not a friendly place anymore. :/

Well, I'll end it here. Gotta go off soon. Later readers!

-samantha.

Caridee tagged me! Hate her, don't hate me.

2009-12-09T04:42:00.001-08:00

Tag 10 people :

1. Ashley Ng
2. Florence Chieng
3. Joanna Tan
4. Caridee Lim
5. Wong Sze Yen
6. Brandon Shia
7. Siah Ben Jing
8. Khoo Su Ting
9. Cindy Lew
10. Tan Hong Ling

1. What if 9 confesses that he/she likes you?
I would hug her so hard, that it wll choke her to death. Nah, just joking. :)

2. Will you go out for a couple date with 3 if he/she asks to?
I'll think about it.

3. Is 7 single?
Yes.

4. Describe 1
She's fun & loyal, she has great qualities.

5. will you date 8?
Um, never.

6. What is 2's nickname?
Florr.

7. What do you wish to tell 10 right now ?
I think Spongebob is so sexy. :)

8. What is 5 good in?
Attracting hot men. :)

9. If you were to do one thing to 4, what would it be?
Slap her ass. :)

10. Have you seen 1 cry ?
Of course.

11. Is 2 crazy or geeky?
Crazy.

12. Will you hold 7's hand and walk around?
No, he's disgusting. :)

13. What do you think of 6?
He's a fun fella to hang with. :)

14. Will you kiss 3 when there is only both of you in the park?
Erm, maybe. :/

15. Is 8 sweet?
Yeah?

16. What is 9's hobby?
I don't know. :/

17. Will you date 10 to a high class restaurant?
I guess so..

18. Is 5 fitted to be a maid?
Erm, heck no.

19. When it started raining, who will you seek for an umbrella ?
Ashley Ng, Siah Ben Jing, Joanna Tan.

20. Where would you go with 1 on a date ?
La Casa. :D

I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head, and everything he touches, and every word he says.

2009-12-09T04:10:00.001-08:00

My was day okay i guess? :/ Dance practice was awesome! I finally get to move, shake & drop! I had no idea that we'll be dancing with partners. Me & Isaak had so much fun together. I was hiding behind him when Dylan wanted to hit me, haha. :)

Yeah, the others had to pair up too. Rinnah's with Joseph, Chooi Si's with Thomas, Yumey's with Brandon, Sue Mae's with Dylan & Joshua's with Reyna i guess? There will be more people coming for tomorrow's practice though.

Dylan didn't wanna hold hands with Sue Mae, neither did Sue Mae. :/ Thank goodness I'm with Isaak. :) Chooi Si & Joshua are really awesome choreographers. I love the way Joshua moves to the beat, he's very talented, I mean it from the heart yo. :) I can't get Jai Ho off my head right now. :/ I'm having an effing annoying flu right now, boohoo. :(

We finished learning to first song already, the first song is Jai Ho & the rest are just Christian songs. :) I was dancing with long & loose pants today, & guess what? It almost fell off. :/ Oh well, I'll stop here. My maid has no right to piss me off. Uh.

-samantha.

He understood me at last, and looked at return, he had the greatest of all imaginable looks.

2009-12-08T04:32:00.001-08:00

OMG, I'm so tired. Slept at 1.30 & woke up at 8.30 just to wake Astrid up. :/ So here are the pictures, as promised. I gotta thank Sue Mae for taking the trouble to upload all the pictures! Ily Sue Mae! :D

There's more though. Well some of the pictures she took of me were just very disturbing, so she had to delete them. The sleepover went well. =) My eyelids are heavy. My head is aching, thanks to the lack of sleep. Oh gosh, I'm going to bed soon. I've got dance practice tomorrow! I'm finding some hot & basic moves on youtube right now. :/

Gee, I miss my bumblebee. :'( HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY ZAKRI IMRAN! Ily perve! :D Me, Astrid & Zak were checking out some hot chicks on Facebook. Both of them were updating their stuff too. They did something that was very disturbing. How do I put it? Hm. Well, forget about it. I was gonna freak. :0

What to write, what to write? Uhm, my day was okay. Astrid treated Zak new zealand natural for his birthday. I can't stand your attitude, seriously! I'm like so damn freaking nice to you! Ugh. When can't you just treat me the same?! This is really frustrating. Well, I'm gonna fall asleep soon. So good night readers!

-samantha.

If looks have language, the merest idiot might have guessed I was over head & ears.

2009-12-07T02:51:00.001-08:00

I'm waiting for Astrid right now. Zakri dropped off her luggage just now. Damn, her luggage is heavy for 2 days trip only! I had to write my diary, read a book & go online while waiting for her.

Astrid came over around 4.30, she had to go back around 6 for dinner. Well, she's taking awfully long. I hope she's not just trying to test my patience. :/ I wanna go Mel's house on Wednesday! :'( Talking to Dylan right now. I might as well do something to keep me awake.

My eyelids are getting heavy. Yeeshh, I hate waiting. :/ *tapping my finger on my arm* You know what? I freaking hate your attitude, I'm just being nice & that's all. Seems like I gave you the wrong impression , don't give me your excuses.

Rudy thinks I'm anti-social. Well, your really really annoying. I wasn't in the mood & you kept on asking me random things. Man, you really need lessons for facial expressions. Last night's BBQ was awesome. I miss dylan & rinnah. Wanted to go hiking with the guys today, but since Astrid's coming, so I might as well cancel all my plans & focus on my time with her.

I don't know why am I so nice to her. :/ I want a Canon E0S 500D! :( I'm like dying to have it right now. Oh yeah, Julian's selling Nikon D90 & it's up for grabs! I forgot to ask him about the price. Ah, oh well, there's always a next time. Bye for now, readers! ;D

little miss obvious.

Everything I'm not, is just another part of you.

2009-12-06T04:26:00.001-08:00

ME & CALLIE. :)

Serinnah, Dylan & Melissa came over today right after the thanksgiving lunch. All three of them had to tumpang my dad's car. So Dylan was the lucky one to get the front seat while all of us were all squeezing in the back.

I love Callie's jacket. :) All the members from Dynamitez get Giordano jackets, but they're sponsored by Castrol of course. I know the picture looks really weird. But wait 'til you see the original one, it looks as if we're glowing. LOL.

After lunch, me & Joseph were talking about Lady Gaga ( SHE'S A MAN WHORE ). After we got back from church, all of us just dumped our bags in the sofa & lied down. We watched Memoirs of a Geisha, haven't been watching it for a really long time.

BBQ night was awesome! Throw a snag on the barbie yo! :D Can't wait for tomorrow's sleepover cuz' Astrid's coming over. :) I'm just afraid that she can't make it & that she'll tell me right at the last minute. :/ We had so much in the park.

We were stalking some couple. It seemed like they were having sex in the pool, it was very disgusting, thank goodness I'm single. :D Teehee. & yes, I'm still waiting for Sue Mae to upload all the pictures. :/ Back to doing the usual stuffs tomorrow, what a drag!

I guess I should stop here, bye readers!! :-)

-samantha.

Every second counts, so live your life like you'll never live it twice.

2009-12-05T03:09:00.001-08:00

Chooi Si said I look so hot with a mustache. Top that Julian, I look so hot with a mustache. I was showing off my new & gorgeous look. ;) *sense the sarcasm*

Family concert was awesome!! :) All the pictures are with Yumey & Sue Mae. Like Zech said, VBS has really addictive songs. :) Can't wait for tomorrow's BBQ party! I hope Serinnah & Sue Mae can make it tomorrow! I really really want them to come. :)

I had no idea that Uncle Tony had such a great voice, he can sing man, really very well! Lil Adam Phong was sitting on my lappie today! He is super cutee!! :) Jacqueline & Charis are coming to my house on the 26th! YA-AYYY!!

William Khoo is incredibly gay, but he's a really awesome guy. :) It's a compliment, Will. Sue Mae was the kangaroo today & Joseph was Peter. HAHA, he looked like some Samaritan. No offense Joseph. :) Yumey was the angel, she looked darn innocent.

BJ came over today, isn't he thoughtful? x) He's still the same old BJ though, perasan as always. :/ Well, I'll end here. :)

-samantha.

Day five of VBS.

2009-12-04T04:57:00.001-08:00

Sam: Mark! You look so freaking hot.
Mark Tan: Thank you for speaking the obvious.
Sam: Perasan betul. ==

Ming King thinks Jo Lin & I wants his attention. Well, you got that wrong man. You can just waste 50 minutes arguing with Ming King in cell group. He was insulting Liverpool, & it was very offensive, to Liverpool supporters.

& it's finally the fifth day of VBS, time flies. & those four days just went by like that. *snaps* The pictures are with Sue Mae right now. Fam concert's tomorrow! :) Surfers, put on your killer smiles & rock the stage. I believe in you guys. :) Same goes to you, stormers. ;)

Hm somehow I don't feel tired, at all. It's a real blessing getting this opportunity to serve God in this ministry. All the best Anita! We'll support you all the way. ;) Some random boy pulled Brandon's pants, thankfully it did not go all the way down. I love Joseph's accent, damn it! Well, I'm done here.

-samantha.

All for one, one for all.

2009-12-03T04:59:00.000-08:00

The main thing I learned today was TEAMWORK. Yes, it starts with T & ends with K. Haha, you can tell by the title. :) Somehow I don't feel tired despite taking care of the kids.

Took loads of pictures, but someone's just too lazy to upload them all. Well, I should not be complaining cuz' it's not my camera. :/ So I should partially blame myself for not having a camera with me in the first place.

I miss my sweetie Sue Mae now. Our wedding's only two months away, & I'm so looking forawrd to it. Haha, I'm just joking, I ain't a lesbian man. :) Although sometimes I act like one, but I'm not . So..... get your facts right.

Charis & I are really close right now. It's been a pleasure working with her, she's so awesome. :) I wasted all my energy on the morning session, but thank God I still have energy to scream, shout & cheer for the afternoon session.

When my brother got up that stage, I was screaming & cheering for him like some wild monkey. I'm serious, everyone thought I was crazy. Well, not everyone. :) My current favorite song is Because. It's a real meaningful song. When you read the lyrics, it just speaks to you. That song can reach out to thousands of lives. :)

Well, there's nothing much to say right now. So.. I guess I should stop here. & to the SPMers, you guys did an amazing job. ;)

-samantha.

I'm not afraid of heights, we crashed into the sky.

2009-11-29T03:08:00.001-08:00

Ahah! More pictures from Retro Night! :) Would like to thank Yumey for uploading them. :) You rock & you better remember that!! ;)

Church was awesome, as always. Ming King was the substitute teacher today. We had a great time with him. He can be a real perasan freak at times though. Tsk tsk tsk. Typical Ming King. :) & he thought that all of us will kacao him, look who's talking now huh? LOL.

My dad was okay, to be exact. :/ Had to go back to church for a second round of deco. Was hanging with Dylan & Kirsten in the sanctuary while waiting for my dad. VBS starts tomorrow, we can only submit it to the Lord right now. In all things we do, we give Him thanks. :)

Well, looks like I'm out of stuff to talk about right now. So.. I'll be back tomorrow, so meet me here tomorrow, if I can go online. :/

-samantha.

It's within my reach, I'm giving up.

2009-11-28T03:49:00.001-08:00

Ello! Couldn't go for Life School Musical today cuz' I had to go for VBS Deco. You see the picture? This is just what half of the class looks like. Well, get ready to see the magic when I get the pictures. :)

The boomerangs were made by such gifted hands. & who do we thank? Yes, we thank God. :) All our natural talents are God-given. Didn't really do much in deco. I only had to paste some stuff on the wall. After that, I just walked off.

It was a really fun night last night. That night could have just stayed there. That night's over now. Oh great! Just when I was having fun! :( Oh gee. We must be accountable for the decisions we make. We just can't fling it. Some people just don't get it. I'm done, for now.

-samantha.

The music stops as we fall into ecstacy, it becomes the start of a beautiful night.

2009-11-27T19:36:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone!! Who knew Word Challenge could be so educational? Especially doing it with your brother. :) Sadly Poh Yee couldn't make it, well, I'm was kinda sad & upset cuz' she told me last minute & I had to clean my friggin' messy room! LOL!

Retro Night was awesome. :) It was one heck of a night. Thankfully the neighbors didn't complain about the noise. Time flies really fast. The moment I was lying on Dylan's shoulder to the moment I had to go home. :/

Dad dropped me off Rinnah's house. So I was talking to Joshua & Isaac while waiting for her. At last she came, along with Rachael, Jo Lin & Sarah. Rinnah's against make-up. :0 She wanted me to help her get ready, & it was such a waste of time. I could had just go straight to Dr' Peter Ng's place. :/ Well, that's old news now.

I lost to Joshua in karaoke by only 8 points. I trashed Calvin in karaoke by 200 points, awesome shit!!! :) Joshua & the guys were rubbing it in my face. We played wolf, I kena hunter. LMAO. ==' Everyone voted me out, well most of them, & someone had to die with me, so I chose Ming King, & he was a wolf, strike!! But at last, the wolves won. :/ Pfft.

All the pictures are with Yumey & Sue Mae. I found a bumblebee partner & guess who? Joel Tong, he's a really lucky guy. He thinks we're twins now cuz' we wore matching colors. == Chooi Si looked really stunning, she's like the queen of curves, in my world she is. :)

There was this game, I forgot the name of it, but it was making me so nervous cuz' you had to write one of the most embarrassing moments that ever happened to you & you had to write it in a tissue & write your name on it. & Thomas was in charge of picking, thank goodness he did not pick me. :)

Everyone thought it was me that went into the boys toilet, come on, I'm not that bad. They didn't know it was Jo Lin who wrote it. Seriously, you guys have no idea who to suspect. But it was Jo Lin, & I was like HAH! In your face man! xP Went back at 11.45pm. I've never ever stayed as late as 11 in a party before. So you can consider this as some sorta achievement, cuz' it is. :) I'm done here.

-samantha.

Let the rain fill my soul & drown my fears.

2009-11-26T04:35:00.001-08:00

Elluuuuuuhhh peeps! :D Poh Yee's coming over tomorrow! Wheeeeeeee~ I finally get to see her, after a decade. Haha, I was just exaggerating.

Ming King's teaching us on Sunday! Yay!! We're gonna jump on your head, ming. :) Just joking, we're not that bad unless provoked. Can anyone imagine watching The Ugly Truth in 3-D?? That would be so cool. :) All the awesome effects, it's almost like virtual reality.

Haven't been reading Fanfiction lately, I bookmarked all of my favorite stories, but sadly, no one bothered to update them. :/ Whoa, bummer really. There's a new batch coming in again next year, & all of us will be moving up. *sighs*

Retro Night's coming soon. Just hope no one spoils my night cuz' that person is gonna get it, I mean it! I'm thinking of changing my blog link now, & I need some ideas. Hmm.. I'm thinking, I'm thinking. I'll just stop here, if, if you don't mind. Bye, for now!

-samantha.

We used to kiss all night, damn we kissed good.

2009-11-25T01:32:00.001-08:00

Hey partner. ;) How y'all doing? I'm doing pretty fine myself if you ask me. HAHA. Right now, I'm in my normal mode. Well, not really. That bitch just had to ruin my mood. Seriously, I wasn't paying any attention at all to what she was saying. They just came out of my ears.

Dee, I don't think I can make it tomorrow, cuz' I have to get some things done for some church event. :/ Two more days to Retro Night, two more days to Retro Night! We're gonna drink beer & drink it with style! I know, I don't make sense at all, I barely make sense. HAHA, whenever I think of something random, I'll just write them here. :)

Make the world go round can make an awesome poledance song. ;) Seriously, I can picture it. Poledancers getting their swag on. Ooh, that's sounds so hot. HAHA. I've been using the word "seductive" too much lately. I guess it's my favourite word right now. :)

Love drunk is a really addictive song, I won't stop repeating the lyrics. Pfft. Well...... since there's nothing left to say, I'll just end here. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, you can't catch me! Yeehee.

-samantha.

It would make you the perfect guy if you weren't a playboy.

2009-11-24T01:22:00.001-08:00

the one & only, Natsume Hyuuga. He looks so alluring. Yum!!

Another boring day for me. The guys came over, again. Had to walk to Waterfront to get drinks since Aimran was thirsty. So I went to Coffee Bean, I didn't had a choice.

There's no Starbucks in Waterfront, they're making me suffer. Dark Chocolate Peppermint Ice Blended (with fudge) rocks!! :) It really satisfies my taste buds. Aimran's scaring me with his gay-ness, & he says he's homo. I guess he's known for that. Typical Aimran, won't stop denying. Haha.

Later, Poh Yee (the greatest friend in the world) called. :) We were talking non-stop. I miss her so much, and she's having an open house next month & I'm so going! I would not, i repeat NOT, miss it for the world. :) I just can't stop thinking (perphaps fantasizing to be exact) about Natsume. He's a dream, a dream I tell you!!

If I can just hug him so tightly, and my fingers just combing through his hair, that would be the bomb, oh yeah. :P He's so gorgeous, I just have to have him. Well, he's just a TV character, he ain't real. :/ Dang!! I'm done, cheeeerioo!! =)

-samantha

There's no reason why, why I'm so in love with you.

2009-11-22T21:22:00.001-08:00

She said she saw me on tv, this girl's a legend in the late night scene.

2009-11-21T05:30:00.001-08:00

Hello humans. Wheeeeee~ New Moon's coming out this Thursday! Dakota Fanning is so pweeeeety!! :) She's like some sorta beautiful swan. I'm so jealous of her.

Retro Night is coming soon too. Looks like it's back to the 60s or the 70s, cuz 70s clothes have polka dots and lots of stripes. Wanted to grab a coffee, but you know me, I'm freaking lazy. :/ & Aimran listens to korean music, unbelievable!

I'm not lying, I heard with my own two ears! He was listening to this awfully squeaky singer, it was making my ears bleed. Thanks a lot, Aimran! xD Pardon me, that's just my sarcasm.

And so, my day ended like this. I don't wanna blog about the rest. Too lazy right now. Later readers! :/

-samantha.

Let it wash away my sanity.

2009-11-20T02:13:00.001-08:00

Hey peeps. *does the peace sign* Went to Sunway Lagoon with mum & Mark today. Wished Poh Yee was there. :( Had to skip lunch to save some time cuz' we had to be back before six, so yeah. & I really hate myself right now, you don't wanna know why.

Hm did not really had much time to try all the rides, what a pity. :/ Came all the way to Sunway Lagoon for nothing. Ahuh. New Moon is coming soon. It's a must-watch. Well for me, it is. I'm starting to miss all my fellow classmates, the satu daisians. :( I had so much with them. All of us knew this would happen, there's no point putting in loads of effort to slow time down. :/

Had a quick snack in Tiger Cafe. The Ferris Wheel is really breathtaking, I've never been on one 'til now. It's like Phineas & Ferb all over again. This does not make any sense right? I know, I say random things, I'm randomly good. ;) Haha. Went back home around 5.00. The guys popped by and we watched The Ugly Truth, the guys loved it. :) & whose idea was it to watch the movie? Yeah, your looking at her. Hoo! Hah! ASTRID'S COMING BACK SOON, this is huge, MAJOR!!

Yeah, called Sze Yen later. We were talking like mad babes on the phone, just wanted to cheer her up. Don't be sad, sis. :) I'm out of ideas right now. Adiva won the best residential area (for low-rise category, i mean) in Malaysia award. This is just wicked man, WICKED!! Way to go Adiva, yeehaww!! I hope you don't mind me boasting. Well, I'm done, for now. :/

-samantha.

Just one night coudln't be so wrong.

2009-11-18T00:30:00.001-08:00

It's Wednesday right? I kept on thinking today was a Friday. Well, now you see my dilemma. Since there's no school 'til next year, I'll always get mixed up with the dates. Typical me, haha.

All the best SPMers!! I'm starting to miss chi & han now, oh boohoo. :( Listening to music is the only thing keeping me alive right now, besides talking on the phone. Haha.

Lydia is a really bad mother, she ate her babies. Tsk tsk tsk. I want coffee, I want coffee, I want coffee!! There's no Starbucks in Waterfront, oh come on!! This is so not ideal. Okay, I probably should be on Fanfiction right now. Bye. :)

-samantha.

Once I hold your hand, and the minute I look into your crimson eyes, I'm already lost in my fantasy.

2009-11-17T03:52:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. :) It was another typical day for a girl like me. Did nothing much today, had to paint loads and loads boomerangs. Boy, it was tough stuff. Anyone going for the graduation thing in SJKC Damansara on Friday?

Mum wants me to go Putrajaya with her on Friday. :( What is this, what is this?! Mum, I need some air. It can't always be family time you know? I have friends too, and I wanna spend time with them, TOO!

I miss watching Alice Academy! I'll just burst into tears whenever something tragic happens to Natsume. HAHA, I'm a really weird girl, I know, that's why Poh Yee loves me, don't you? LOL.

Mikan & Natsume are just so meant to be. I'm biting my nails right now, I'm just so jealous. I wanna be in an anime series too! :( I'll stop here. ;) Bye world.

-samantha.

Let's kill the city lights.

2009-11-16T22:55:00.000-08:00

Thursday, 12/11/09.

Doesn't this look cute? :)

It's gonna be the last day of school tomorrow. :/ There's gonna be a whole lot of changes next year. I gotta start getting used to not seeing the form 5s. I'm gonna miss kar yee, chi and pei nee. You have been one of the nicest people I've ever met so far this year.

Even though we don't know each other that well, but whenever we pass by each other, we'll still say hello or at least a hey. :) My legs are still aching from yesterday, it was a really long walk. I don't think I'll ever do that again, unless it's for some special occasion. If it is, by all means, why not?

Gotong-royong was okay. I still prefer the one on Valentine's Day, it was so much fun. :) I was half awake in class, I didn't do much, but I'm still so tired, maybe it was because of last night? I don't recall anything happening last night though. Short term memory lost, maybe?

Poh Yee ditched this morning. I was practically the only one wearing the Blitzerz supporters T-Shirt in class today. Wei Jian & Kaven wanted to report to the teachers about my shoes too. They're real amateurs, don't know when to shut up. Ambrose looked really gay today, don't get offended man. :) Fine, I'll stop here.

-samantha.

The trick is simple, just get your facts right.

2009-11-16T06:25:00.000-08:00

Astrid's coming back next month, I guess I'll probably be the first one running up to her when she comes. :) I miss her hugs, they're so warm. It's like hugging a teddy bear, her hugs are the best. :) Without you by Hinder makes a lot of sense, that song speaks to me. I guess it's time to move on now.

My grades should be my priority, not boys. :/ All this lovey-dovey stuff have gone a little bit too far. I'm just so gullible. I'm starting to believe what people say without knowing what's going on. I've not been myself lately. I'm up for another life size roller coaster ride. I'm starting to miss school now, I miss telling Poh Yee sick jokes in class. :/

Ah, please tell me this is all a dream. I wanna take a break from all those dramas. Church was gooooood. :) I remember the way he laughs, as if I've got in the back of my head. I miss his smile. Right now, I'm acting like some damsel in distress. There's some friggin' problem with my msn, I can't log in.

What do you want from me? You can't expect me to be little miss perfect. Take a look at yourself, you are no better than me neither am I better than you. I'm trying to make things right, but you refuse to let it go. You can hold your grudges against me for as long as you like. Have I ever done anything to you? So far, no. You just hate me because of my attitude. It's none of your freaking business. If you don't like it, then just say it to my face. You don't have to tell my friends, they'll tell me anyway.

Ne-Yo's coming to M'sia, for the very first time in history! I had no idea about it until I saw Caridee's blog. I better save up some money to buy tickets. :) I love his songs and his voice, it's so unique! :) Bought some form 2 revision books, did a few pages for Geography already. Oh well, I'm good. This satisfying enough? A proper post compared to the rest. Bye, for now. :)

-samantha.

Emily's party. :)

2009-11-14T20:14:00.001-08:00

" It was definitely a night to remember. " - Malaysia's sweethearts. :)

Happy belated birthday Emily Yap!! :) & thanks for the invite. I have to say, the party was a blast. Pictures? Oh yes, they're all in Sharmen's DSLR. So I'll upload them here once I get them. :)

Went back around 10 since I only live 12 steps away from her. Met loads of people from Sri KDU. Dang, I just love NURUL & JOSLYN! They're freaking nice, it's a good thing. :)

I'm done. :)

My best friend gave me the best of life.

2009-11-13T00:23:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone. :/ It was the last day of school today. Wow, time just passed like that. I'm gonna miss everyone, especially the form 5s. Everything's happening so fast, if time could just give me one more chance.

Sometimes I get the feeling that you dislike me or something, you can be really harsh to me, but you just don't know it. I'm supposed to be happy since it's the last day of school, but I'm not, not even close to the word happy.

It all led to a great start when I met you, and now it's time for a new beginning. Bye bye to honeymoon year. Life sucks. It's real, that's why it hurts.

Went to La Casa after lunch. Had wild mushroom soup, it really satisfies my taste buds! Oh well, I'll stop here. I'll try to update more often.

-samantha.

There's no turning back, my world's just stuck like that.

2009-11-11T20:08:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone, you know what day it is? Yes, it's Wednesday. Ambrose is gonna ask her out today. :) And he says I watch too much anime porn, give me a break Ambrose. I bet you watch porn more than I do. HAHA.

Two more days 'til school ends. And it's bye bye honeymoon year. :( The pressure comes in. It creeps in the dark & brings you down with loads and loads stress. *sighs*

We're having gotong-royong tomorrow. I don't have to wear baju kurung tomorrow! I'm like really tired right now. Had to teman Ambrose to bu3, omg, it was effing hot. We were walking under the bloody hot sun. What a day!!

My shoe has a stain now!! I'll just leave it there. Oh well, I'm done now. :)

And here with you, is where I wanna be.

2009-11-09T23:38:00.001-08:00

Today was the last BSF lesson, for this year I mean. The headmaster just announced that the form 1's to form 3 won't be going to school next week, we'll be having our school holidays earlier.

Ohgee, which means we have only 4 more days to see our friends, this is absurd. I'm really gonna miss the form 5's. :/ Life goes on..

Took some class photos in bible class. Will upload them soon once I get them for Tabitha. Haha. I'll stop here. :)

-samantha.

The coarse wind is blowing it away, and our love starts to fade.

2009-11-07T22:09:00.001-08:00

Ay, I'm Sham. (a.k.a. the Samster). I just love the Aussie accent!! :) Haha. I'm not supposed to go out today, damn it.

I had to miss the carnival, way to go dad! Yeah, thanks a lot, it's so much fun at home! (NOT!) Went to my cousin's birthday party later at night. There was catering there. I love the mee hoon they served! It's superb! HAHA. :)

Don't you think Miranda Cosgrove looks hot in this picture? She looks so grown up. :) I feel like having some Shanghai noodles right now. My stomach is grumbling for some.

I made a bet with Ambrose, I told him if I forget his birthday again next year, he can slap me on the face. Just hope that I'm lucky if I remember. :)

alright, I'm done. I'm really lazy to continue.

-samantha.

Summer's over, hope it's not too late.

2009-11-06T01:32:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! *sighs* I finally have the time to update. Exams are over, still not allowed to use the computer on weekdays, what a bummer.

School was school, took some pictures in class for some siviks project. Had to persuade Wei Jian to take at least a picture, that guy is hard core.

Will be going out later with dad to some life group. I can't make it to the bu3 carnival tomorrow, dad says I gotta rest at home. WTF. == Your suppose to go out on Saturdays, not bust your ass at home. Gahhhh!!

Ambrose thinks anime is gay. Well, it just so happens that the girl you like loves watching anime too. So once she sees this, she's gonna hate you for life. :) I'll stop here.

-samantha.

It was gone with the wind, but it's all coming back to me now.

2009-11-04T20:07:00.001-08:00

It's Jia Wen's birthday tomorrow! Wheeeeeeeee~ Got back some of my results today. And I have to say that I'm not satisfied, at all.

Anyone going for telematch? :) If you are, just have fun! Why does it have to be next Saturday?! There's always a next year anway! Can't wait for retro night. It's gonna be a night to remember. :)

Ah well, what else is there to blog about? I'm out of words right now. :/ School's gonna end really soon. I'm gonna miss everyone. :(

Planning to watch Sherlock Holmes soon, you know how much I love comedy right? :) I'm done here. Bye! *waves to the world*

-samantha.

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you.

2009-11-01T00:09:00.001-07:00

Esther's in Aussie right now. She wants to ponteng sekolah. Now kids, this is a very bad example. xD & guess what? It's her birthday today.

Yes, it's her 13th birthday. She's a teenager now. :) I sayang her a lot. She has an awesome personality, she's to die for, oh yeah. :) I can tell her anything and she's always there to listen and reach out. I'm really lucky to have you as a friend.

Once again, happy birthday Esther Tan Wei Shen. :)

Looking for a rainbow, on the horizon.

2009-10-31T01:14:00.001-07:00

Wei Jian, if you don't wanna be my friend, you don't have to! Why you can't accept me for who I am? You were talking behind my back. You know what? I always defend you instead of Poh Yee? I was such an idiot.

And I thought being happy will help me forget about the problems, well I got that wrong. I'm right on the edge, and I'm this close to falling. I want you to understand, I'm already trying my best to be nice to you, but I happen to mess up, I'm just distracted by those stupid problems.

Yes, they are stupid! I always mess up, what good am I? I'm screwing up all my friendships. Things just can't get any worse. I'm a wreck. Gee.. I'm done, for now.

-samantha.

We're miles above the ground.

2009-10-30T05:38:00.001-07:00

MERDEKA, MERDEKA, MERDEKA! 30 Ogos 2009, hari yang mulia. :) On the phone with Darren now. & He's damn hyperrrrrrr. HAHA.

The outing was okay, watched Jeniffer's Body, it's damn scary. I was using my Blitzerz T-Shirt to cover my face and my ears. I was screaming so damn freaking loud. Caridee was really irritated.

We went to Bubba Gump for lunch, the food there's tasty and the drinks there are superb!! Dee's aunt payed for lunch. :) I owe her one man.

Went to Dream World after the movie. Saw Nick, Xheng Kheat, Bryan & Wai Loon in McD. Later, dee wanted to check out some stuff in Fourskin. The fedora's there are cute, planning to get one for my dad for his birthday. :)

well, i'll stop here.

I've been waiting, for my dreams to turn into something.

2009-10-29T00:07:00.001-07:00

Seni was damn easy, easy to tembak. :) Geo pressure is over! I forgot most of the stuff about Geography. Screw it, I'm lost.

Whoa, things just happen so fast, I remember the days in primary, those were the days, the good old days. Time flies freaking fast.

It's gonna be one heck of a day for me tomorrow. Will be going out with Dee & Wan Ling! :) & Belle's coming over on Saturday for a swim.

And it keeps getting better. Argued with mum in the morning. She won't stop scolding me in the car, who gave her the fucking rights to judge me?

Looks like it's me & you (my BM textbook). I'm outta here.

-samantha.

You opened my eyes, you showed me truth.

2009-10-28T00:39:00.001-07:00

Hello everybody!! It's been a few days since I last touched the computer. Two more days, TWO MORE DAYS BABY, and say hello to freedom!! :)

Can't wait for Friday, will be going with Dee and Ambrose, for the very first time. :) I got 30/60 for Math paper 2. :O What a drag, I bet my mum's gonna skin me alive. Aiks.

I'm letting go, I hope you're happy. You make me feel like nothing in the world matters. You gave me something to believe in.

It could be that one thing, nobody else could have. I'm done writing craps, back to studying.

-samantha.

These words, they mean nothing to me.

2009-10-24T22:11:00.001-07:00

Tell me, is it worth waiting for him? I've had it, I'm just darn tired. Nothing in this world matters to me now. Called Sze Yen, man it felt so good talking to her on the phone. I've been dying to see her.

Thanks Poh Yee, Belle, Ben, Xheng Kheat, Caridee & Ashley for always being there for me. I'm really grateful to have you guys as friends and I'm also really proud to call you my best friends. :) We've had our fights, but nothing can break us apart. :)

I'm done, for now. :/

It feels like I'm falling apart, I'm lost in your eyes.

2009-10-21T21:13:00.001-07:00

Monday

Monday was oh-so boring. Could not go for BSF since dad's in Bei Jing right now. Went to get my all-time fav snack, i'm a sucker for japanese rice crackers. :) I bet Lydia would want some too. :)

Tuesday

School was good? Exams are just a week away, I'm really really nervous. I really wanna go back for Children's Day. :( I'm better off on my own. I'm just not good enough for the world. :/ alright, im done, for now.

The love you give, it all comes back to you.

2009-10-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

It's all over now, it's time to move on. It's not worth it being sad, let it go. If you hold on to the past, you'll fall off & your gonna regret.

Life is not just an adventure, it's more than that. You're gonna go through many obstacles, you're gonna get hurt. It's a long journey and you have a long way to go.

In the end of the day, in every minute of our lives, when we take time to realize, good things come and go, once they go, they ain't coming back. As life goes on, so should we.

You should be wondering why am I talking craps, but I'm just writing down what my heart feels.

-samantha.

Listen to the sky, and dance with the wind.

2009-10-10T03:22:00.001-07:00

You know what Zakri? Your starting to become a real bitch right now. Anyway, I don't give a shit about you anymore.

Poh Yee and Annabelle came over. There was like this gang of french hotties, they just take my breath away. And there was like this super hot korean guy! :P

They didn't stay long, belle brought her little sister. She won't stop spraying me with the watergun. MAHAI. == I had a great time talking to them. :)

Watched Tinker Bell again, I have no idea why I like this movie so much, I'm serious alright. Went to Rakuzen to get some ice cream and japanese rice crackers, it's becoming an addiction.

Called Xheng Kheat later, I miss everyone now. I know this sounds hilarious, cuz' I saw them two days ago. LOL. Oh well, I'll stop here.

-samantha.

I wasn't looking for forgiveness, I wasn't led by my pride.

2009-10-09T03:32:00.001-07:00

Life is good, I can't complain. I've been feeling lost, can't find the words to say. Spending all my time, stuck in yesterday. I would like to thank Caridee for the pictures!

Had Ramune and some japanese rice crackers, I had difficulties resisting. HAHA. You know me, I'm a spender, not a saver. :)

I earned RM 20 from my mum, just by typing some document for her, sweeeeeeet! Talking to Rachel right now, she's one cutie alright. *whistles* :)

I seriously had no idea that Ambrose has a mustache. HAHA. :) Taaaaa!

-samantha.

You came along, and you changed everything.

2009-10-08T00:44:00.000-07:00

I feel empty, really really empty. Look, I really really like you. I've been trying to tell you that, but it seems like you don't want me going anywhere near you. No one understands my condition right now. There's something special about you, something special to me. I feel like an idiot, I think about you every day and every night. I just can't stop thinking about you. As long as you're happy, I'm happy. You, being happy, is all that matters to me and nothing else. I miss you, you're the reason why I draw those stupid heart shapes on my textbooks. You mean the world to me, you mean everything to me. You made my world a better place, you filled it with joy. Sometimes I gotta hide, what I feel inside. You turned my world upside down, and now there's no turning back.

-samantha.

The ship is strong, moving on.

2009-10-07T05:33:00.001-07:00

Howdy y'all. HAHA. Just wanted to wish all the form 3s out there in Malaysia the best of luck. There's no need to panic.

Had my finals today. MATH WAS SO DAMN FREAKING HARD, THIS IS NO JOKE, I SWEAR. I was gonna scream! Malay was okay, quite hard though.

I'm gonna fail Math, no doubt. Eesh. Ben, whatever it is, me & florence will always be there for you. So stop being so negative. :) Look at the bright side, there's plenty of fish in the sea. :)

Ah well, look at the time, I've got work to do. Cheerio! :)

-samantha.

iDate A Bad Boy. :)

2009-10-04T00:25:00.001-07:00

This was like the best movie ever. Who knew dating a bad boy could be so... weird?? Griffin is dead gorgeous, talk about extreme behaviour, man you make it hard to be faithful.

I just dig his sexy body, I wanna lick his body, like so badly. HAHA, LOL. But not all hot guys are perfect, Griffin collects pee-wie dolls. Major eww much. :0

Carly is just damn darn lucky, I bet every girl is after her right now. She got to touch his body. Omg. Go ahead Griffin, strike 'em dead.

Spencer was so funny in the movie, and so was Freddie. HAHA. Gotta go now, byeeeeeeeeee. :) And no Rinnah, I so don't like him.

-samantha.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies.

2009-10-03T05:24:00.001-07:00

Exams are only a week away, can't wait 'til it's over. I've been studying my head off this term. Just hope that the hard work was worth it, and this time I hope I can maintain my ranking.

Currently listening to New Divide by Linkin Park, he's so awesome. :P I miss everyone. :( This is getting ridiculous. I know, I'm weird. HAHA.

I need some air, been busy with homework lately, you can see why I haven't been updating. I missed all the fun yesterday, thanks for rubbing it in my face Wei Jian. That helps. xD

I'm really lazy right now. Stay tuned for more! I won't let you down, bloggie. :)

-samantha.

I'm right on the edge, keeping my feet off the ground.

2009-10-02T04:48:00.001-07:00

Hey y'all. Skipped school today, couldn't sleep at all last night. Ugh, I thought I was falling sick or something, it seemed like I was gonna die soon, but no, I'm still alive.

Ben called me when I was sleeping, I was so darn tired for the whole day. Called him back later, I miss that little pornstar. :) He found his new love, big-boxing. & it's getting really irritating.

Haven't been taking pictures lately. Oh well, that does not matter. Finals are next week. :0 I'M SO NOT READY. I suck in Malay and Chinese. This is gonna be a nightmare.

-samantha.

It's his birthday. :)

2009-09-30T21:16:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday Wen Han, I'm really sorry for the late wish. Thank goodness I texted you on Monday. :) I'm so relieved.

It's your 17th, how do you feel? OLD? Haha. :P Got your present already, just waiting to give it to you. What can I say? You'll be leaving the school very soon.

Although I only knew you last year, but it was really nice knowing you. Your a guy with an awesome personality, keep it up! :)

I can always count on you when I need help. Thanks for being an awesome friend. Once again, Happy Birthday, Ng Wen Han. :)

It's her birthday. :)

2009-09-25T04:01:00.001-07:00

Ohmgee, I can't take my eyes off this gorgeous girl. And if I'm not mistaken, today is the day when she turns 12. I need a tissue. *sobs* She's growing up so fast. LOL.

I would never trade her for anything else in the world, except for Chace Crawford of course, haha. :P She has always been there for me. She had my back and I had her back.

I can't describe how much I miss her. She loves complimenting me, it makes me blush, somehow. I have no idea how she does it. Your one hell of a girl.

Oh remember, before you blow your candles, make a wish. :) I know what is she gonna wish for already, me and chacey, together forever. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I will try my best to help solve her problems, without hesitation. When I was sad, she was there to dry my tears. Your the best sis! If your happy, I'm happy.

Once again, happy birthday, Wong Sze Yen. :)

It was goodbye, it kept us apart.

2009-09-24T03:14:00.001-07:00

Hello world! I'm trying to get used to using Photoshop now. Man, it ain't easy. It's damn hard to use, but it has better effects than PhotoScape.

& I would also like to wish my friend, Trisya Yeap a Happy 13th! :D Sorry, I can't find any pictures of us. :(

one last thing,

enjoy penang, ch'ng xin. :)

buh-bye, x.

Only you can put those missing pieces back together. My world just dissapears when you're here.

2009-09-23T04:50:00.001-07:00

Today was just the best day ever! I had a great time with Ch'ng Xin. :D Didn't take much pictures, but that doesn't matter, we enjoyed ourselves and that's all that matters. :)

Will upload them soon, I gotta wait for Ch'ng Xin to upload 'em. Ch'ng Xin brought pizza, so we had Domino's for lunch. Belanja-ed Ch'ng Xin New Zealand Natural.

She wanted to belanja me Coffee bean, I told her not to, but she insisted, you can't say no to that face. We had difficulties choosing, not much variety in Coffee Bean. Starbucks still rocks!

So, we decided to go to La Casa. Both of us had wild mushroom soup, and for the drinks, I had iced peach tea and she had lemon soda.

Omg, Im dying for another bowl of that soup! Damn it's addictive! :P We went back later. After that, we got changed and had a dip in the pool.

After we got out, I was like freaking tanned. ZOMG. :0 Watched iCarly later. Didn't realize that me & Ch'ng Xin had so much in common.

Went to the park later, we were pole dancing! HAHA, let's kick it baby! LOL. Decided to play with Clovis later, he's like the cutest toddler I have ever seen! Ch'ng Xin says he's damn cute. :D

Went back home after that to watch The Nanny! We had our laughs, whoa, it's awfully funny. HAHA. Ch'ng Xin went back around 7, that was the end of it.

And right now, I'm waiting for her to come online. Alright, I'll stop here.

yours truly,
-samantha.

Happy sweet sixteenth babe!

2009-09-23T04:46:00.000-07:00

Hey people, i've got big news! Someone is turning 16 at this very day. I bet y'all know who it is already. I'll spell it out for you anyway. :)

The wonderful and magnificent.... DELIA AZAHARI!! :) Congratz babe, you made it, your 16 now. Where are the fireworks? HAHA, lol.

Be happy, it's your day. :) Your the star, the spotlight's on you now. Once again, happy birthday, Delia. :)

From the inside out.

2009-09-22T06:30:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday Rach, it's your 13th. :) Your one heck of a girl, I love you just the way you are.

no doubt, I miss photography. Screw it, and I had to miss the last session of photography because I was sick. PATHETIC!

Ch'ng Xin's coming over tomorrow. YAY!! This is gonna be so much fun. Whoa, just think about the fun stuff we can do together. I just hope that I won't have trouble sleeping tonight, I'm so excited!

Ambrose, watch out. I'm gonna tell Ch'ng Xin everything she needs to know. :) HAHA, bumped into Zak today, haven't seen him in a while.

Was stunned when I heard Kanye West scolded Taylor Swift. And the most shocking part is that Wei Jian claiming Taylor as his own. Mhmm..

One last thing, break a leg, the finals are coming and it ain't getting any easier. I'm done, for now. :)

yours truly,
-samantha.

Fly to your heart.

2009-09-21T06:18:00.001-07:00

I know this is really childish, but I was bored okay? But I kinda like this movie. :) I've learned so much from this movie.

It has taught me to be proud for who I am, not what others think of me. Honestly, I was gonna cry man. There's like this soft side of me now, HAHA.

I skipped the gym for this, but it's worth it. :) I'll stop here.

You know, the good things that happen to us, they come and they go.

2009-09-21T00:11:00.000-07:00

Hey people, I decided to do something different today, instead of writing, I'll be posting up pictures. :)

It's a whole new blog. :)

2009-09-20T06:44:00.000-07:00

You probably may know or may not know the reason why I made a new blog. Haha, what does it take to get some peace over here? Currently talking to dylan siao! :)

well, hope this would be better than the last one. cheerio!

yours truly,
-samantha.